frosh was beyonnddd fun, but def did not prepare me for what to expect in uni. I have 17 classes a week of bio, calc, physics, chem, and my single elective which is about cultures. thats 930 minutes of class, which is 15.5 hours a week. its all hitting me now, how much i have to focus on school. so stressed. i can’t think about boys or partying or any of that. I’m terrified which kinda makes me feel like what if I’m doing the wrong thing. what if human kinetics isn’t for me? idkkkkk just so overwhelmed. Trying not to complain though because I know I’m so lucky to even be able to go to university AND live in res.
I guess i just need a friend because it gets rather lonely. and its such a weird kind of lonely, too. Im surrounded by people and I’ve made a lot of chill friends but i still feel so lonesome. its like all the friendships aren’t real friendships (yet at least), they’re more “surface friendships”. i don’t expect myself or others to open up just like that, or for me to make a best friend right away though, too. sighhhh a familiar face would be nice. i wish one of my close friends was going here so we could talk for real.
wow this text post is terrible. My thought flow is all over the place.
just so many changes and not adjusting well, i guess